Let down

So we all know the saying that says something to the effect that we don’t see faults in our role models. But when you finally do see the faults it seems to hurt a lot. The worst is when that person calls you out on something and tells you that it is bad and not to do that and then you find out that they are guilty of the same thing. Hypocrisy is probably the most annoying thing to see in a role model and frankly it pisses me off when you find these sort of things out. Not only does it destroy a lot of trust but it makes you wonder if they are failing in one area then what else are they doing that they warned you not to do. It really makes me angry because I will just sit and wonder if things that I previously though they were below them are things that they do all the time. The perfect/near-perfect image of them is shattered beyond repair.

This is really similar to finding out thing about people at school that you previously thought we above reproach. I can’t mention any names here but if you know me then I have probably ranted about these people before. It’s not that I condemn them for what they do (drink, smoke, sex) it’s just surprising to all of the sudden find out that half of NHS/TI members aren’t the “clean” people you thought they were. It is just sad that every new person I meet now at school I have to wonder “well they seem nice but..” and it might sound harsh to assume they do stuff like that (and again I am not condemning it) I just want to tell them to “Take a bow” for putting on such a show for everyone. This year has been a huge year for finding out stuff that I was too nieve to see before. I just wish I could assume nice things instead of asking myself does this person drink, smoke, or have sex and thinking that it must be one of those. The few friends I have that don’t drink or smoke have there own problems and similarly with my friends that dont smoke. I am not pointing fingers and yes I don’t think that these thing are good things to be doing but hey I’m not perfect so I really shouldn’t judge them. To wrap up these thought that I know are scattered I just want to say one more time in this second paragraph I am NOT pointing to certain people (think of them but defiantly not calling them out on their actions